twin thoughts of suicide and happiness
one is fleeting
the other
i ain't got the nuts for
today i watched the girls from the college
thinking what a glorious thing,
all that heartfelt
eagerness.
perfect teeth
no scars or wrinkles
probably won't ever have
the experience
of
a 5 day drunk no food in Modesto
or
their best friends funeral, dead of an overdose
watching a man die, beaten by a skateboard
or
sitting up all night freezing in a jail cell
ya know,
sometimes i'm glad
that i did all these things
so that they won't have to.
8:20 am
sitting in an alleyway
drinking a 40
shaking
and
racked with the fear
looking
at a dirty pamphlet
on the ground
that says
"what price
would you pay for salvation?"
thinking
i've got
a broken belt
a photo of last nights girl
and about 37 cents
in my pocket
hoping
in todays economy
that'd be enough
to do something
This is Jeff Stuckey's first appearance in Gnome.